i wont delete this blog or anything. just leave it here. like that. yeap.
i've moved. but i guess i wont put it here until im much more ready.not that i have many readers anyway.
just ask me if you want my new url.
so. i guess that's about it.
happy moving, Muz.
(:
--- its what i do almost every day.
3/19/2007 12:55:00 PM
there can never be a permanent cure to unhappiness and emoism, that's for sure. no one can be happy ALL the time. then again, it sucks to feel pissed or sad or fucked up almost every day too. it's like a virus in your life.
i think God is Great. He gave us feelings to taste both sides of life. yes, we go high when we are happy.and we complain on the downsides of life that we face every day. but i believe it's all His arrangements as to see how faithful we are to Him. whether we seek Him in times of confusion. whether we thank Him when we gain an achievement and during moments of joy.
i don't know whether the daily life that i'm facing now makes me stronger. i'm still learning to pick myself up after every downfall. with the help of my dearests in school. and His guidance when i seek for it.
putting aside about feelings and stuffs. i feel like blogging about making friends.
i like meeting new people, making acquaintances and befriending them, for certain ones. but on certain times, just on certain times, i get kinda tired of the process and all. just sometimes, i wish i'm not so friendly. at the times when i don't get back a positive or an expected response from the other party. there was one case of me trying to befriend a person on msn, and what i got back was "i hate girls who tak tau malu" as his PM[personal message] on msn because i put "what an egoist" on my msn PM. hurhur. there was also another case of this very quiet guy, who annwered my wuestions in the minimum number of words possible when i asked questions. it's like, either he's naturally quiet, or being unopen, or simply unfriendly [which to me was unlikely since he accepted my request in msn]. so it's at times like this when i feel "am i being too chatty or issit their problem?"
looking at another view, there was also another case of this Indian(i think) guy who added me on msn but he didnt come online for so long that i resorted to deleting him off my contact list. and one un-fine day he suddenly initiated a chat and i was kinda freaked out by his presence. and i was not in the peak period of making friends. so i was being hostile to him, and he never bothered me anymore. haha.
i still like making friends. but to people who care to make friends the same way i do. and to people who will give me a positive response.
after all, if i'm not friendly, i would've never felt the pleasures of life with my dearests [ps: yeap, go ahead and think it's you&you. coz it IS about you&you. and a whole lot more people. wahahas *grins*] now, would i? hahaha.
3/13/2007 09:56:00 AM
but they say it works.. only that i havent tried it for myself. i can't find the right night to try it. hurhur.
thanks for listening that night(:
and oh. sorry for throwing my pencil case at you. i was suffering from attention-deficiency at that moment, you see. heh.
and i think i've shown the ugly side of me for a few times when i was with you guys. sorry for that too=/
hmmmm. that's about it i guess.
so long.
``what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone``
3/09/2007 01:54:00 PM
my Sunday entry:__
as far as i see it: you're happy.you only have that sad-worried expression on you when something BIG is bothering you.you light things up.you're funny.i like your sense of humour.i like it when you smile coz i'll smile along with you.i like the way you live each day.
as far as i see it: you're sweet.you're funny.you're a good listener.i like your sense of humour. i like it when you smile coz i'll smile along with you.i like the way you think.i like the fact that you care to listen.
i appreciate the presence of both of you in my life(:
---
my definition of sacrifice- an act of doing anything to be with your loved ones.your friends.your speacial friends.
sacrifice is waking up early in the morning to spend more time with them in school, when you can sleep longer.
sacrifice is sparing your own free time to accomodate to their needs or wants, when you can do things of your own.
sacrifice is setting your alarm at 10pm and waking up just to talk to them or wish them goodnight, when you're already in dreamland.
wait, that can be stupidity, not sacrifice if the effort of waking up to call the loved ones is unappreciated.
stupidity can be seen when u know you are sick and you have medical leave but you still go to school just to meet your loved ones.
stupidity can be seen when you care to spare your time for others you love when they're pissed or angry coz you think your presence around them matters, but they shrugged you off instead. and they never said sorry.
so i'm saying, unappreciated or excessive sacrifice may be stupidity at times. i feel that sometimes my sacrifices are genuine and at times.. you guessed it, are sacrifices-turned-supidity.
and i feel that i'm currently BSing right now coz i'm mildly thinking straight. bahhh.
body temperature reached 37.9degrees Celcius. bleahs. i'm off.
**
and so im back to school this morning.
came back to school yesterday afternoon for maths test.and gpa.and for some other reasons.heh.
after bearing with my harry-potter specs for a few days, i got my new specs last night!
finally, no more blurred vision(: and so my new red-and-white specs made its debut to school this morning along with a red shirt, red hairband, red socks and red shoelaces and i'm so super red this morning and i love it. haha.
my bro brought back the bike after... a few weeks it was hidden at his friend's house.
i got a C for my MT A level exam. hurray.
i failed my physics retest. double hurray.
that's about it i guess.
``Let it all crash down
When it ends it begins with you
I'm gonna learn every time you do
3/06/2007 09:09:00 AM
God knows how estatic i was at that moment of time when i found out my gc was not stolen but i left it in the lab instead. im such a total noob! hahahaaa.
--
im still me. but a lil' better.
thanks to all listening ears(:
to alex[is]: rmbr what i said in lt3 this morning. cheer up(:
``don't make simple things complicated; make complicated things simple``
- said mr TeddyBear-boulder to me
3/01/2007 10:45:00 AM
and for losing the most expensive calculator that i've ever come across.
yepp.the graphic calculator.
and my maths test is just around the corner. bleahs.
so many tests coming up!
---
i guess im kinda coping with it.
but im still not talking to them properly yet.
and it irks me when, at certain times i feel like going online all of a sudden and i know i cant.
----
i know one day, all our scars will disappear, like the stars at dawn
and all of our pain, will fade away when morning comes
and on that day when we look backwards we will see, that everything is changed
and all of our trials, will be as milestones on the way
and as long as we live, every scar is a bridge to someone's broken heart
and there's no greater love, than that one shed his blood for his friends
on that day all of the scales will swing to set all the wrongs to right
all of our tears, and all of our fears will take to flight
but until then all of our scars will still remain, but we've learned that if we'll
open the wounds and share them then soon they start to heal
as long as we live, every scar is a bridge to someone's broken heart
and there's no greater love, than that one shed his blood for his friends
we must see that every scar is a bridge, and as long as we live
we must open up these wounds
when some one stands in your shoes and will shed his own blood
there's no greater love. we must open up our wounds
---
"i like you. i can like you can't i? you don't have to like me."
-from a book
2/27/2007 09:08:00 AM
Me: well
its up to individuals
Babe: hahah
yeahh..
): cheeeerrrr up.
haha
Me: haha
no worries la
Babe: dun worry.
u have me (:
and chocolates
Me: haha
yes
tnx babe!
------
120107
Richie: time is the best healer
: D
its true
haha
Me: YUPP
time heals everything
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170107
Me: u knw that online offline thingy u did for public on new year?
hw'd u do it???
Husni: uh
status
appear offline
thn online
thn off
thn on
thn off
thn on
thn off
thn on
thn off
thn on
thn off
Me: okay okay
Husni: lol
Me:
LOL
I get the msg
hahaha
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170207
Me: ppl irritate me and i get pissed off easily
thiha: which ass irritate u?
i take care of him for u
tell me
XD
Me: haha
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010207
9:26:41 PM
[c=4][a=1][i][b]CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS, HuZaI HaTe YoU ™ [/b][/i][/a=1][/c]
g tukar nick kw
9:26:52 PM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ boulder.batu.pebbLe!
asl lak?
9:26:55 PM
[c=4][a=1][i][b]CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS, HuZaI HaTe YoU ™ [/b][/i][/a=1][/c]
kepale batu granite cement limestone marble
9:26:59 PM
[c=4][a=1][i][b]CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS, HuZaI HaTe YoU ™ [/b][/i][/a=1][/c]
=D
9:26:59 PM
[c=4][a=1][i][b]CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS, HuZaI HaTe YoU ™ [/b][/i][/a=1][/c]
haha
9:27:00 PM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ boulder.batu.pebbLe!
LOL
9:27:02 PM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ boulder.batu.pebbLe!
hahahhaha!
9:27:06 PM
[c=4][a=1][i][b]CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS, HuZaI HaTe YoU ™ [/b][/i][/a=1][/c]
aku selalu ckp kwn aku gituk
9:27:10 PM
[c=4][a=1][i][b]CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS, HuZaI HaTe YoU ™ [/b][/i][/a=1][/c]
kalau diorg degil
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020107
1:04:37 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
i got alot of cravings now la
1:04:42 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
awww
1:04:51 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
i gt alot of cravings but no cash
1:04:53 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
ahahaha
1:05:22 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
craving for brownie from secret recipe, caramel ice blended frm starbucks, oreo cheesecake frm cafe galilee
1:05:31 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
cadbury chocolate
1:05:40 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
just had cadbury just nw
1:05:53 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
haha
1:06:02 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
i had it ytd n de day b4
1:06:23 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
nw that uve said it, i feel like getting iced blended mocha frm starbucks, that brownie from coffee bean and cookis from famous amos
1:06:29 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
hahha
1:06:31 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
eh same!
1:06:37 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
ahh... famous amos!
1:06:39 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
smlm aku mkn cadbury tuu tk stop sey
1:06:44 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
oh
1:07:00 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
and that chocolate muffin from coffee bean too!!!
1:07:19 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
n chocolate waffle frm prima deli
1:07:36 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
AHH YESSS
1:07:55 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
and oh, that chocolate thingy from jollybean
1:08:13 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
*drools*
1:08:30 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
wahaha
1:08:39 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
pagi2 buta cravings eh
1:08:58 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
wahaha
1:09:01 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
yalor!
1:10:08 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
chocolate
1:10:12 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
merci chocs
1:10:22 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
haagen dazs
1:10:22 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
belgian chocs!!!
1:10:31 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
HAHA
1:10:37 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
was abt to say sth like that!
1:11:15 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
woah... i still can feel the insides of the belgian choc flowing out right after i put the choc in my mouth
1:11:20 AM
ƒîzªh Happy New Year!
heavenly babey!!!!
1:12:17 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
SHHHH
1:12:18 AM
_+:: muZz :: monochromaniac ::+_ HerEverLivingFantasiesIngrained is DEAD in her dictionary.
lol
>>and those are the pleasures of life which i cant help but reminiscing.
and they are what that keeps me smiling at home.
2/26/2007 12:13:00 PM
