jjc.
making new friends.
06s10 pae.
alex the lame guy.
general paper.
hockey.
valentine's day.
o level results.
maths chem physics and h1 geog.
being an ogl for orientation 2.
06s10 jae.
more new friends.
celebrating birthdays!
meeting karolyn the-lame-girl gan.(karo must read this!)
makneneks and pakdatuks. and a whole of time spent with them- sentosa outing, dance fest, hari raya outing, bladibla.
dance.
opportunities to perform- chinese new year, dance fest @ kolam ayer, pesta peti putih.
being part of camwhores co.
concerts, plays, etc.
my remakable birthday=D
kfc
camwhoring.
morning peeps- the other set of dearies besides the makneneks and pakdatuks.
pw mates.
mt a level exam.
going through one of the greatest emotional turbulence.
promos.
hari raya aidilfitri.
vivocity.
sentosa.
jj's 25th anniversary/prom nite
MORE camwhoring.
that moment of bravery- the photo(:
hari raya aidiladha- the experience of watching them being slaughtered.
=) ;) :P =D and this> +) . i have know idea what it represents though. lolx.. [dude, it looks cute ey? haha!]
maybe i'll add more if i can think of more. heh.
goodbye 2006, hello 2007
JJ's 25th Anniversary cum Prom Nite=)
This costume will be worn for the school's 25th Anniversary cum Prom Nite.. wheeeeee~ =)
tralala~ my phone's back
the hyperactive irfan! the F3 Flag=)) i drew that "F III" and wrote that "Lesson for today"!! heh. thats it for now. im off~
*** this is khaliq. *** ***
after. --- --- insurance. money. 'coincidental' meetings. tell me something i dunno. telinga aku berdesing mendengar semua itu. why dont u blurt those shit on HER? --- im confused. --
12/31/2006 11:26:00 PM
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after the performance! =)
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that guy and his 11 scandals`(=
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we're tired of formality=))
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with the ex-president of Malay Dance, kak fara~
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12/31/2006 04:25:00 PM
JJ's 25th Anniversary cum Prom Night was simply superb!
the weeks of hard work has been paid off. im so glad its over.
one performance down, many more to go.
ok, maybe a few more.
pictures shall be put up much later=)
i dunno where i got that courage. maybe it was due to desperation. maybe it was because i know i may not be seeing him anymore in school.
my heart just melts whenever i see his face.
he looked suave tonight. at least to me. and so i tapped his shoulder, and requested for a snapshot together. and i did it. i did it, though my heart was beating fast at that particular moment. i mean, which malay girl would dare to take a snapshot with a guy who isnt even an aquaintance to her..?? but i did it ^^
maybe to others, its just one bloody photo, but to me, it was more than a photo. beneath it lies my courage, and of course, his charm. he is simply an eye candy of mine, now and forever=)
im so sooo sooooo.. **grins**
alright alright im stopping.. but i'll be back with updates and all.
first i need pictures... girls, gimme gambar kay?!=))
muzzy is happy`
12/30/2006 12:37:00 AM
i wish i knew whats going on in your mind.
i wish u could share with me some of your problems.
but hey, i respect your decisions no matter what.
its just that..
oh well, maybe its better for you and maybe you're happier doing things that way- your way.
we're still friends, are we?
im being paranoid.
haix.
12/28/2006 10:43:00 PM
Mama: apa ni.. asyik pekik2 jer.. memang macam tarzan betul la korang ni..
Me: haha.. kalau kite tarzan, mak ibu tarzan..
Mama: ala.. memang mak mengaku, mak ibu tarzan.. takyah cakap pun..
Sis: kite tarzan pekik, mak tarzan nyanyi! mak nyanyi selalu sumbang!
(we cracked up)
Mak: (to my sis) ohh.. kenekan mak eh.. abeh kau tu raja nangis..
Me: bukan raja ma, tapi ratu! ratu ngampul!!
(laughed again)
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i spent the last night at pasir ris again. and im back! heh.
it touched me when i saw him almost getting into tears when we had to part. it was as if that was our last meeting. but i'll be back for him, for sure...
he never asked for any of those to happen to him. he's way too young to understand the situation. behind the talkative him, i see innocence. behind his naughtiness, i see a bright smart boy.
it's normal for a male child to be naughty. it's normal for him to run around, and wrestle people. but it's crap if he is not showered with care and love by his own parents.
which is why i'm always there whenever possible. coz i wanna give him attention that he lacks from his own.., although he gets enough from others around.
i just hope that he'll grow up to be a good guy. and he wont allow his family background to be a reason for him to be carried away from a normal healthy live.
12/25/2006 03:41:00 PM
Then she said another.
And now she has repeated what she said in the first place.
And the other one is not giving me any green light.
And everything's getting messed up.
This is DEFINITELY not an ideal thing to start my morning.
Urgh.
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12/24/2006 10:29:00 AM
what the...?! 
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best female camper: yani
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all ready to go home.
12/23/2006 08:58:00 PM
~I had a friend beside me and we were cycling. Suddenly he appeared in front of us, whizzing past with his own bike. The friend beside me called his name. He turned. He acknowledged the friend's presence, but looked at me quizzically. As if we never met before, when the fact was that he was my secondary school mate. He was still trying to figure out who I was. Feeling upset, I immediately distanced myself away, far away from them and had a good cry. When I was done, I cycled around before heading back, only to see him again. He gave an apologetic smile, only to be returned with silence from me. I walked away from him, but he held my hand, blurting words of apology. Our eyes met, and a tingling feeling rushed through my whole body. I let it be when he continued to hold my hands, crossing his fingers with mine. Slowly, i tightened the grip of his hands, closing the gap in between between our fingers~
*it was... there was this minute lil feeling in me for a split second telling me i was in another realm. but the story continued. *
~it was bliss. snuggling up to him. him holding my hands tight. and never let go. but, two weeks- it was ecstasy for only two weeks. and he went off one day. without bidding goodbye. i was close to tears but i held on~
**and i woke up, looking around me. i wanted to cry but i couldnt.**
a dream.
only a dream, although i wished the bliss would be true.
after that dream, i kept thinking. thoughts about you just flooded in.
i can practically count the number of conversations that we have ever made for the four years we spent in the same school.
how i wished we had a stronger friendship although we were in the same class for the first two years.
how i wished those words were said to me too.
if only i could tell you about that dream.
on second thoughts, maybe not.
if only you would start up a conversation with me on msn.
will there ever be a day...?
i miss you so badly suddenly.
will there ever be a time, when i can see you again..?
sigh.
__^It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are but I...
I'm with you^__
12/22/2006 09:00:00 PM
MuZzY NaWa 
MuZzY NaWa FiZahK
12/21/2006 10:07:00 PM
Yesterday's Highlights--
Met my aunt after dance and went to Funan to claim something.
Then went back to Pasir Ris by cab.
Reunion with my adorable 5 year old cousin Irfan. No matter how naughty he is, i love him to bits=)
Canadian Pizza and chicken lasagna for dinner ( YUMMY!=D ).
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Went to Mustafa Centre with Yantee, FizahK, FizahC and Cikgu to buy makeup stuffs for dance.
Then had lunch at Bugis.
Headed down to PS. From there, FizahK went off for a mugging session(!!) with Shimah. Initially i decided to take my repaired phone some other day instead and joined Yantee, FizahC and Cikgu to watch Night At the Museum. But the queue to buy tix was freakin' long! And they've booked tix for themselves. So i decided to stick to my original plan which was to claim my phone at Wisma Atria.
MY PHONE"S BACK! =)) But, sorry friends, temporarily i cant reply to any of ur messages or be contacted through my phone coz it's run out of credit. heh.
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12/21/2006 06:48:00 PM
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it's ______ how the mood changes from one extreme end to another in just an hour.
it's ______ how a simple conversation with a person can cause a disagreement with another one in just a few minutes.
it's ______ how a simple bedroom can cause two people to fight, fight and fight almost every day.
it's ______ when i hear the same thing again and again.
it's ______ when suddenly im controlled of what I do.
since when...?
it's ______ when suddenly someone's using your property which you have been searching for for quite some time.
effit.
it irks me.
it's..... arrr, i can't find words to describe them.
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im not the only girl...
who the heck am i to control.....?
maybe i really shouldnt think too much. its making me confused and all.
12/19/2006 10:16:00 PM
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this is san and usamah.
Head of the camp: Sis Fizah, Sis Yati, Bro Wan
Logistics: Firdaus, Khaliq, Hassan
Games Head: Usamah, Hassan
Participants: 20 people=)
Date and Venue:16-17 December, EastCoastPark Area G
Arrival at ECP--
The area was veeeery far from McDonalds, but with transport, we managed to reach that area from the mosque. After settling down and listening to a welcome speech by Uncle Mo (the head volunteer of the Mujahidin Youth) and the mosque president, we had our breakfast while some guys pitched the tents. And then we had some icebreaker games. We played this game called 7-uP and the last guy and girl standing was Farhad and me=) But i lost to him. Haha... Next, we were divided to two groups, guys and girls, and we had to arrange ourselves accordingly by name, and then by birthdates. And for both times, the girls won!
Telematch--
After changing our sandals/shoes to flip-flops, we had Telematch. This time, we had a mix of guys and gals in two group. I was under Usamah's group along with Yani, Izan, Liyana, Syafiqah, Khaliq, Firdaus and Qayyum, while the rest- Rusy, Adilah, Daya, Sis Yati, Farhad, Hakeem, Redha, Rani- were under Hassan's group. We had to run around, picked up sweets amongst flour, fill up a cup with seawater and transferred it to a big bottle, repeating the steps till the water reached the bottle's brim. The were three cups, one without any holes and two with holes. Khaliq, being the first one to go, had to dig for cup that was being buried under the sand and took the cup with a hole. So the team was slower in filling up the cup. And duh, of course, we cheated. Haha. Usamah just grabbed hold of sand and smoothly placed it in the bottle to make the water rise. Hence, although we finished filling up the bottle the same time as Hassan's team, they won of course. Firstly it was because their bottle was so.. clearer than ours that was HALF-FILLED with sand. Haha. And secondly, of course, we cheated. Haha. But all had a good laugh.
Then we played the classic Dog'N'Bone. And for the scond time, we lost to them. Haha...
After lunch and Zuhur prayers--
We started preparing for the mini performance for that night, while waiting for Treasure Hunt to commence. The theme was 'Anak Derhaka' (translation: umm... a child who is.... *alamak i dunno how to translate la.. heh) After brainstorming, we decided to put up a play and came up with a storyline. It was really hilarious, the way Fir and Usamah and everyone else make up funny lines to liven up the presentation although the theme was kinda of a somber one. Hahaha.
Treasure Hunt--
Befor the Hunt, we had to play a game to determine which team would start the treasure hunt first. We had o fill this cylindrical cardboard with water to make the pingpong bal inside the cardboard rise to the brim and we coul pick it up. The trick was, the cylinder had many small holes and we had to cover it up.. And thank God, we won for this round. So we were off to the destinations given. There were 7 destinations, along EastCoast, and 8 clues in total. We had to collect the clues in order to find out our pit stop. Since each of us had different staminas, we split up to make the job easier. Some had to walk all the way to *yikes* McDonald's for the clues. **Imagine walking from Queenstown to Bouna Vista or Dover or maybe even further**. I was assigned to be with Fir to walk to Bedok Jetty and this place called Kayak Sports and FnB. for two clues. By the time we reached our destination, Fir was already panting and had leg cramps. We sat down for a while after getting our clues, and headed to the pitstop once he regained his breath back.
Me and Fir were the first ones to arrive at the pitstop since we walked the shortest distance compared to the rest. When the rest of my teammates and some peeps from the other team arrived, we sat down ad chilled. Laughters wasn't missed as Khaliq and Rusy started telling lame jokes around. Hahaha. When the rest of the peeps from my team and the other team arrived, i found out that Rani was injured due to being chased by a dog. And Hakeem was barefooted coz his slippers was unusable. Since both teams broke the rule of staying together while walking during the Treasure Hunt, we had to overcome another obstacle, which was walking sideways to the final destination with our legs being tied to one another. It was hard, i tell ya, but we managed to coordinate and -finally- won the treasure hunt game=D
After Asar and Maghrib prayers--
Takzirah by San. It as something like a reflection period for us. An emotional period for some.
We started setting up the BBQ Pit, while some invited people make their arrival to the area. Adilah's Mum and bro, Qayyum and Hakeem's parents, Bro Jameel and family, Usamah's Dad, Sis Fiza & Liyana's parents and others. Since one of the two pits' lamppost was spoilt, we used the other pit only for the food. Most of the time I kept myself busy BBQ-ing the crabsticks, chicken wings and drumsticks, sausages, corn, satay.. Besides seeing the rest enjoying themselves too- some playing soccer, others eating, FOOD kept me smiling for the night=))
Then we did a final touch up and cleared doubts fo the final showdown of the performance. As we performed, impromptu script came up and it made our whole play simply.. heartwarming, From the laughters we could see that they enjoyed our play. The other team did really well too, putting up a mini musical.. Haha. I had a good laugh too^^
**My group's Play -The Cast and Crew-
:: Daddy- Fir
:: Mummy- MuZz
:: Son- Qayyum
:: Daughter- Izan
:: Son's friends- Khaliq and Usamah
:: Daughter's friends- Yani and Liyana
:: Narrator- Syafiqah
The plot- The son, Qayyum was obliged to take care of his sick daddy. He even declined when his wild friends asked him out. 0One day he was tired of living that way, so he became wild and learnt to stay out till late night. His actions indirectly influenced the daugther, Izan. One day Izan was pestering her mummy to buy her a new phone. The mummy was frustrated, and slapped her. So she ran away. Upon seeing that the mummy slapped his sister, Qayyum pushed his mummy down. All this happened beside the daddy who was lying down. He then died out of a heart attack. Qayyum was remorseful of what happened. Izan met her 'bad' friend Yani at the first level of her flat and decided to sleepover at her house. After a few days the mummy called Liyana, Izan's good friend, to ask for help in searching for her daughter. Liyana then managed to find Izan and told her to go home coz the daddy had passed away. And so she went home to seek forgiveness from the mummy. **
ps: its not THAT serious u know. hahaha..
After the play, we had a lucky draw and mini prize presentation for the telematch and treasure hunt. For the lucky draw, Usamah noticed most of our group got the lucky draw prize, including me=) haha...
Then they went for Isyak prayers while some of the guests started going home... So did Adilah and Liyana.
After shower and midnight came--
Ustazah Jamilah, Ustaz Yusof's family arrived and hung around=) We managed to play with their daughters and sons. The youngest one, Hasif is sooo adorable!
Kicking the soccer ball around. Still munching on BBQued Food. Cycling around. Blasted music. Bitched about stuffs. Everything except turning in. The pit was still 'on' with low heat. Then some went for midnight games. The Time Game ver.1, the Holiday Game, and the Time Game ver.2 were up on the list, lead by Bro Wan. Hahaaa. It was great, seeing the blurrrr faces, esp Khaliq's, when they didnt grasp the idea of the games and how they go. We also played the *Gun, Bang, Ahhh* game (whatever it's called.. hahah). Funny game there. Hahah.
After the night game, I hung around for a lil' while longer. My brain was begging me to sleep, so I turned in at around 0300, woke up at around 0430 for changing of locations of tents (due to lightning and thunder), slept back at around 0500 and woke up at ard 0615. Guess my plan to stay up till next morning didn't work. Haha.
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The morning of 17th Dec
I was awaken by them for another round of takzirah after Subuh prayers. Ater that, we had some reflection session along with Uncle Mo giving another round of speech and presenting to us our certificates. Then we packed up. After that, there was another round of prize presentation for the best male camper and best female camper. Farhad and Yani. Weeeeee~ Then they presented tokens of appreciation for Teacher Ju and her husband (Qayyum and Hakeem's parents) for staying overnight with us. Not forgetting the 7people who organised the whole thing for us. Thank you, Sisters and Brothers. (Unfortunately Hassan and Khaliq had to go home early morning for a soccer tounament). We checked te area for the final time, and headed off to the carpark for the bus which brought us back to the mosque.
Upon reaching the mosque, we carried the stuffs back into the mosque and placed them to where they should be. Then i went to Ustazah Jamilah's office for my report book. Alhamdullilah, I got 3rd!! Usamah's dad offerd to send the Jurong peeps- me, Rani, Daya and Syafiqah back home. So away we went.
1100 to 1800- 7hours for a nap after reaching home.
*That's not a nap, that's my daytime bedtime!*
Overall i truly loved the camp. Hopefully they will organise something like that again. I'm really thankful to be given the opportunity to attend the camp. It was really great to foster and stregthen the bonds between me and the madrasah peeps.
::Facts::-
- I could feel myself blushing when i lost to Farhad for the Icebreaker Games. Heh.. I know losing's not a big deal, but it was kinda embarassing losing to a guy two years younger. Haha..
- It was a great way back from Kayak Sports and FnB to the pit stop with Fir during treasure hunt. He shared loadz of things with me. Im glad our 11 years of friendship is still alive. Thanks Fir=)
- Khaliq can be a part time joker. Haha.
- I didnt even touch a single BBQued chicken. All i did was cook anf fan. Haha.
- Daya and Hassan can make a duet album. Their voices are superb!
- Syafiqah and Usamah's such a sweet couple... and his dad's a sporting man too=)
12/17/2006 11:32:00 PM
Audition went ok. From left- muz, syafiqah, sophian the casting director, fizahK.
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12/15/2006 11:02:00 PM
Mugging session with FizahK today at Woodlands Regional Library.
That guy behind her was so... annoying.
Reading loudly to himself coz "it was too noisy", yawning like a dinosaur from Jurrasic Park (Fiza said so.. LOL). It was as if he OWNED that place. Wonder why no officer made her rounds today.
"No wonder nobody sat here", she said too. Hahaha. Really, we found that table empty when we reached.
Managed to do some Maths. Yippee.
complex numbers. z, -z, z*, iz. urgh.
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to YOU, YOU, and YOU. who are so unrelated to me.
i know this is none of my concern, but hey, i gotta express my dissatisfaction. not to only who three.
but to those who think they deserve it. and this is something in general too.
firstly, WHAT THE HECK ARE U GUYS THINKING, man? i know it will sound that im green or something, but hell no, im just trying to bring out a point here- SHE is NOT the only girl in this world.
you have moved on alright, but why are you still hoping?
just because you're older, and "smarter", you think whatever you say is right?
And you, i'm sorry you haven't gotten over her entirely, but.. i guess i haven't much comments for you.
i wonder..
why do some guys think they are ALWAYS right?
issit hard for some guys to accept the fact that some girls not meant for them? haven't they ever heard of "takkan gunung lari walau dikejar"?
some guys tell girls to let go and move on, but why can't they themselves do the same thing?
are some guys that egoistic?
i wonder..
i wonder..
damn i wonder too much.
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12/14/2006 10:11:00 PM
we are burnt!
the beautiful one.
12/13/2006 09:21:00 PM
