Monday, March 19, 2007
i think this will be my last entry HERE
i wont delete this blog or anything. just leave it here. like that. yeap.
i've moved. but i guess i wont put it here until im much more ready.not that i have many readers anyway.
just ask me if you want my new url.
so. i guess that's about it.
happy moving, Muz.
(:
::life
3/19/2007 12:55:00 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
psychological?
being emo and sad and whatever other emotions you wanna feel. i think they're psychological stuffs. it kinda depends on one's psychological level. how they think of things, what they see those things as, and how they should react to them.
there can never be a permanent cure to unhappiness and emoism, that's for sure. no one can be happy ALL the time. then again, it sucks to feel pissed or sad or fucked up almost every day too. it's like a virus in your life.
i think God is Great. He gave us feelings to taste both sides of life. yes, we go high when we are happy.and we complain on the downsides of life that we face every day. but i believe it's all His arrangements as to see how faithful we are to Him. whether we seek Him in times of confusion. whether we thank Him when we gain an achievement and during moments of joy.
i don't know whether the daily life that i'm facing now makes me stronger. i'm still learning to pick myself up after every downfall. with the help of my dearests in school. and His guidance when i seek for it.
putting aside about feelings and stuffs. i feel like blogging about making friends.
i like meeting new people, making acquaintances and befriending them, for certain ones. but on certain times, just on certain times, i get kinda tired of the process and all. just sometimes, i wish i'm not so friendly. at the times when i don't get back a positive or an expected response from the other party. there was one case of me trying to befriend a person on msn, and what i got back was "i hate girls who tak tau malu" as his PM[personal message] on msn because i put "what an egoist" on my msn PM. hurhur. there was also another case of this very quiet guy, who annwered my wuestions in the minimum number of words possible when i asked questions. it's like, either he's naturally quiet, or being unopen, or simply unfriendly [which to me was unlikely since he accepted my request in msn]. so it's at times like this when i feel "am i being too chatty or issit their problem?"
looking at another view, there was also another case of this Indian(i think) guy who added me on msn but he didnt come online for so long that i resorted to deleting him off my contact list. and one un-fine day he suddenly initiated a chat and i was kinda freaked out by his presence. and i was not in the peak period of making friends. so i was being hostile to him, and he never bothered me anymore. haha.
i still like making friends. but to people who care to make friends the same way i do. and to people who will give me a positive response.
after all, if i'm not friendly, i would've never felt the pleasures of life with my dearests [ps: yeap, go ahead and think it's you&you. coz it IS about you&you. and a whole lot more people. wahahas *grins*] now, would i? hahaha.
::life
3/13/2007 09:56:00 AM
Friday, March 09, 2007
sleep happy
and you'll wake up happy and energised. yupp. another philosophical statement. haha.
but they say it works.. only that i havent tried it for myself. i can't find the right night to try it. hurhur.
thanks for listening that night(:
and oh. sorry for throwing my pencil case at you. i was suffering from attention-deficiency at that moment, you see. heh.
and i think i've shown the ugly side of me for a few times when i was with you guys. sorry for that too=/
hmmmm. that's about it i guess.
so long.
``what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone``
::life
3/09/2007 01:54:00 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
simply striking
**
my Sunday entry:__
as far as i see it: you're happy.you only have that sad-worried expression on you when something BIG is bothering you.you light things up.you're funny.i like your sense of humour.i like it when you smile coz i'll smile along with you.i like the way you live each day.
as far as i see it: you're sweet.you're funny.you're a good listener.i like your sense of humour. i like it when you smile coz i'll smile along with you.i like the way you think.i like the fact that you care to listen.
i appreciate the presence of both of you in my life(:
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my definition of sacrifice- an act of doing anything to be with your loved ones.your friends.your speacial friends.
sacrifice is waking up early in the morning to spend more time with them in school, when you can sleep longer.
sacrifice is sparing your own free time to accomodate to their needs or wants, when you can do things of your own.
sacrifice is setting your alarm at 10pm and waking up just to talk to them or wish them goodnight, when you're already in dreamland.
wait, that can be stupidity, not sacrifice if the effort of waking up to call the loved ones is unappreciated.
stupidity can be seen when u know you are sick and you have medical leave but you still go to school just to meet your loved ones.
stupidity can be seen when you care to spare your time for others you love when they're pissed or angry coz you think your presence around them matters, but they shrugged you off instead. and they never said sorry.
so i'm saying, unappreciated or excessive sacrifice may be stupidity at times. i feel that sometimes my sacrifices are genuine and at times.. you guessed it, are sacrifices-turned-supidity.
and i feel that i'm currently BSing right now coz i'm mildly thinking straight. bahhh.
body temperature reached 37.9degrees Celcius. bleahs. i'm off.
**
and so im back to school this morning.
came back to school yesterday afternoon for maths test.and gpa.and for some other reasons.heh.
after bearing with my harry-potter specs for a few days, i got my new specs last night!
finally, no more blurred vision(: and so my new red-and-white specs made its debut to school this morning along with a red shirt, red hairband, red socks and red shoelaces and i'm so super red this morning and i love it. haha.
my bro brought back the bike after... a few weeks it was hidden at his friend's house.
i got a C for my MT A level exam. hurray.
i failed my physics retest. double hurray.
that's about it i guess.
``Let it all crash down
When it ends it begins with you
I'm gonna learn every time you do
::life
3/06/2007 09:09:00 AM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
great mornings give me a great start to the day(:
my gc's back! hahah.
God knows how estatic i was at that moment of time when i found out my gc was not stolen but i left it in the lab instead. im such a total noob! hahahaaa.
--
im still me. but a lil' better.
thanks to all listening ears(:
to alex[is]: rmbr what i said in lt3 this morning. cheer up(:
``don't make simple things complicated; make complicated things simple``
- said mr TeddyBear-boulder to me
::life
3/01/2007 10:45:00 AM
