280107 at JE Library__
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trivias of the monday *bleahs*
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not even the pics could make me smile.
---------------------------- pc wasnt so bad today. *diao*. Most of them are sooooo.. me. Haha.
randomness
us the f3 ogls last day of camp(060107)__ --- done by richie the friendly one.who always accompany me in msn. lolx. go richie! hahahax. ---------- Firstly, thank God i can access blogger once again after a looong time. fyi, yesterday's entry was posted by syafiq, who crashed my account and help me publish. yay. haha. thanks alot syafiq! todayy~ went to the library for a super-short mugging session.then hung out with fizahK aim mira and shimah. they wanted to get kika's prezzie. so after getting the prezzie, we walked walked around. decided to head home early. so here i am since 5.30pm. u're making me confusedd`
1/30/2007 09:06:00 PM
::2.4km run for PC. bleahx.
::kuinoi was singing jt's 'sexy back' by replacing 'sexy' to 'muzai'.. so it went "im bringing muzai back... YEAH!" haha=)
::change of plans. sucky.
::had laugh-y moments with Cicak, Yantee, Syafiq and Ilyas. haha.
::managed to control my food intake today.
::failed my chem test on organic. unexpected.
::adrian was being an asshole in chem class.
::sienmae tried to cheer me up by giving smiles on my paper(:
::fizahK brightened me up with her smses during malay class. wakaka.
ps: fizah! aku tak cuci mata ah. tak ramai.. heh ;p
::almost met with an accident when i was going home on a motorcycle.. [almost fell off the motorcycle..*shivers*]
-It's too late to take this back
This accidental exit-
1/29/2007 08:43:00 PM
::2.4km run for PC. bleahx.
::kuinoi was singing jt's 'sexy back' by replacing 'sexy' to 'muzai'.. so it went "im bringing muzai back... YEAH!" haha=)
::change of plans. sucky.
::had laugh-y moments with Cicak, Yantee, Syafiq and Ilyas. haha.
::managed to control my food intake today.
::failed my chem test on organic. unexpected.
::adrian was being an asshole in chem class.
::sienmae tried to cheer me up by giving smiles on my paper(:
::fizahK brightened me up with her smses during malay class. wakaka.
ps: fizah! aku tak cuci mata ah. tak ramai.. heh ;p
::almost met with an accident when i was going home on a motorcycle.. [almost fell off the motorcycle..*shivers*]
-It's too late to take this back
This accidental exit-
1/29/2007 08:43:00 PM
perhaps it was because you're the last person i talked to before i turned in yesterday.
hmm.. i think that's a logical reason. haha.
part of it showed you were smiling and laughing.
my point: umm.. you were a happy kid? haha.
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random: i'm addicted to silhouette of a life by 10 years(=
it's okay to be pissed once in a while. everyone has his or her own bad and unlucky days.
but there IS definitely something wrong when she's angsty ALL the time.
she can't help it.
she's very tired of being down.
she tries her best to smile she herself doesnt like being angry all the time.
she tries ot to depend on her friends too much. she herself has her own insecurities. she knows some are tired of seeing her behaving this way. but she really can't help.
she's expressive.
she's thankful for all the superb times, smiles and support that she has gotten from everyone who has given it to her.
she hopes they'll continue to do it.
coz she definitely can't survive alone for sure.
and she wants them to know she loves them from the bottom of her heart.
(:
i'd never feel alone again with you by my side
you're the one, and in you i confide
1/28/2007 01:52:00 PM
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school's been ok i think. haha.
its not exactly boring nor its superduper fun.
it gets fun when ure laughing with ur friend.
it gets boring when it comes to gp or physics. heh.
phyics test next thursday. the conditions that they give ("if you fail the test, u will have to retake it again and again until you pass") doesnt seem to gimme the jitters or anything.
i know nuts about gravitation or simple harmonic motion(shm).
im prepared to fail.
went to stadium with nawa and her bro just now. found out tix were sold out earlier on, but we went to try our luck anyway. made a trip down to jalan besar stadium to see our luck but we didnt get any. heh.
expected- tickets were REALLY sold out. unexpected- nawa's elder bro managed to get three tix at the very last minute. then Cikgu and FizahCicak fetched us from lavender. after loads of cursing, tons of vulgarities and reaching to the point the fuel meter almost reached zero, we reached the national stadium. but.. since there were only three tix, enough for nawa and her siblings, Cicak cikgu and me decided to head home after coz Cikgu's car was parked infront of this another car. and for me, i dont see the point of staying coz i dunno when we could crash the entrance.
things dont always go your way. hahaha.
i was offered to be an extra for this drama that will be released in feb. the filming was supposedly today but it was pushed to tomorrow. and i already promised a friend to help her out in somehting tomorrow.
so.. yea, i had to turn down the offer. kinda disappointed. but.. haha.. maybe its just not my rezeki yet.
see?? things simply dont always go your way. haha.
and yes, luck never gives, it only lends.
lol. God knows how many TIMES i said that in my blog. haha.
it seems so quiet now.
1/27/2007 11:24:00 PM
1/24/2007 10:17:00 PM
Here are some pictures that i found from the Net.:--
calvin and hobbes strip! i lurve this particualr strip. perhaps, coz it kinda reflect the kind of life that i myself go through.. (sorry if its too small to be readable. heh) 
aint he cute?? (:
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this one? haha. not from the Net, but it was exclusively from my friend Huzai, who claimed that he has good photography skills (and i went, "uhh.. yea okayy..." haha.. )
1/23/2007 09:48:00 PM
I FEEL LIKE THE MOST STUPID GIRL ANYONE COULD EVER SEE.
I FEEL LIKE...... PFFFFT.
i wasnt supposed to even feel THAT way but i led myself on.
allowing my feelings to go astray. and let sorrow sank deep in me.
empty promises was what i made to myself when i said im not going to be emotionally attached to anyone anymore from now onwards.
one-sided heartbreak was the result for keeping everything in me and not telling you for fear of affecting the friendship which, i felt, is just starting to bloom after three years.
three years.
yay. someone just made me cry.
what the hell...?
first you said you dont want to be attached or be in a relationship for now, and the next moment you're telling me you're trying to woo the girl back??
the girl who ditched you?
suit yourself la.
i can only pray for the best, for your saturday plans,
and for you and her if your plan worked.
i feel so empty and deprived.
1/22/2007 09:08:00 PM
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maths lecture was okay.
physics practical was okay too. have an practical assignment due tomorrow.
a chem tutorial to complete.
mother tongue- i wished they were in the same class as me. sigh=(
CONCLUSION: it was just another MON-otonous-DAY.
"you should be happy today is a monday! why? because.. friday is coming!"
-mr leow
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"JUNE=PIMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Not easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. Hot but has brains."
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You're nice, really(:
i hope you wont stop treating me the way you are now.
and i hope it will go away soon.
it will, it will...
=(
1/22/2007 05:21:00 PM
Youth Rocks! COncert at Vivo was SUPERRRRRRRB!! sooo many perofrmers! to mention some, there was..
::Merah, the band who got popular through the song 'Cintaku'
:: Chiko!! The forever-cute finalist from Anugerah '05!
::Fauzie Laily, the 2nd runner up in Anugerah '05
:: HyrulAnuar! The CHAMP of Anugerah '05!!
and the best thing was, i got to see them upclose! REAL upclose! haha..
GARDEN OF EVE rawks! MUTTON BALLS RAWK!
but.. sigh... my greatest biggest APOLOGIES to Nawa and all MuttonbaLLers... i accidentally deleted the vid that Nawa took during the performance.. sowie peeps=(
cheering, mass dancing, camwhoring!
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nothing much happened today.
tomorrow's a school day.
bleahx. stating of the obvious.
stupid dream it was.
and yes, this particular paragraph is about u. haha.
honestly, i wished it didnt dream about it.
everytime i have a distinct dream, i'll be thinking about it for a day before i get over it.haha. stupid, yes?
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i wished i could be loved. at these kind of moments i just feel desperate to have someone to be by my side, holding my hands.but... it was these kinds of moment too that im trying to appease my heart to be patient coz its simply not the time for me yet.
at least, i still have God.
Ahh one more thing. Here's an aknowledgement to my dearest rawker friend Ahmad Huzaifah Bin Firdaus. For having been listening to all my woes for today and maybe for the past days.
I know you WONT be reading this, but yea, aku dah ckp aku akan letak nama kau. hahah.
fluctuations of feelings swept in me.
bleahs.
1/21/2007 09:21:00 PM
muz: boredom drives me crazyyyyyyyyyyyy
husni: LOL. boredom makes me bored. LOL
muz: ahaha! rhetorical. boredom bores me.
husni: LOL . im bored of boredom
muz: being bored is boring
husni: boring gets boring after some time
muz: ahaha. ok this is crazy..
hahaha. rhetorical stuffs really.
but hey, i enjoyed myself! lol.
1/19/2007 10:31:00 PM
~160107 in the bus on the way home after my mugging session and 'street-dining' with her and shimah
after sooooooo many desperate tries.
i was like thinking, "maybe i should go to FizahK's blog, and click the Blogger link, try my luck and see whether i can blog."
And yes, for the second time, it worked. Haha.
Issit just coincidental, or do i really find luck at FizahK's blog?? Lolx.
FIZAH, YOU MUST READ THIS! lol.
Luck never gives; it only lends.
Funny as it may sound, i think its true.
So many things i wanna say, i dont even know where to start.
chem test on organic chem today. left blank on some questions. i think a borderline pass is waiting for me. went home early. thought of sleeping, but i couldnt. so i went back to school for movie screenings. *the corpse bride* and *just my luck* were on the list. *just my luck* was superb(:
gp was ok yesterday. we watched *clone ranger*, about cloning, test tube babies, and more interesting stuffs that was.. well, interesting. we went back to class 20 minutes before lesson ended. and all the time mr goon raised his voice, practically shouting. and yet he asked, "am i too loud? i have to shout coz i cant really hear myself due to some hearing problems. but i'll be fine after a few days.." umm, ooo...kay. well, take care then, mr goon. i hope that your hearing comes back soon.
during pc, we ran, did pullups, pumping and sprints.. now my thighs and my arms hurt. ow..
i cant believe my sister can be vulgur too. tsk2.
she must have gotten it from me.
im trying hard not to say too much vulgarities now =X
its been wet weather for the past few days. the past week even.
the air's been cool.
i like it.
have i said before, that i like my new timetable? haha.
only three knew it. three. i dont feel like telling everyone.
damn, issit even meant to be spread..?? i mean, its not even juicy news!
and even I MYSELF am not sure whether its REALLY TRULY true.
sigh. let time reveal the real situation.
for now, im kept in confusion.
and im sorry dude, after all that advices, im still staying on to my position here, not making any move.
im stubborn headed, i know, but.. sorry.. its really not me to do what you told me to...
shut me off when i exceed the limit of telling things to you.
it felt great to be able to talk to him like we're some ol' friends. he was the first person whom i told, though it wasnt in details. it just happened that he was there when i needed someone to talk to.
though sometimes the things that had been discussed were not exactly my favourites, it somehow brought me closer to him. like me, he's just one confused kid who is trying to figure things out.
i was tempted to tell him how i feel. and i almost said it. ALMOST.
maybe next time.
when can i ever see you again..??
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``missing you like i always do
wonder if u feel the same way too
but i know things are just
what they're meant to be
so let time wake me up
from my fantasy
and snap me back to reality
though time and again i will still be
thinking of the ever-living fantasy
1/19/2007 06:48:00 PM
Yupp. U saw it. For more info, u can go to FizahK's blog. Haha.
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Today__
daily sch routine. pc, maths lecture, physics practical, chem tutorial, mt cultural lesson.
for pc, we ran one round for warmup and had 2.4km training. so tiring sey.
thats bout it. im off to study~
will u believe me if i say i miss u?
will u believe me if i say its true?
will u say the same thing back to me?
will u give a heck and pretend u don't see?
1/15/2007 06:38:00 PM
with the exception of the fact that i did sign in early in the morning, before school.
and so i slept at 8pm yesterday.
haha. sorry fizah, for not replying to any of your messages. heh.
its been a few days of papers and books and emoism and God-knows-what and finally its weekend.
and today is sunday. yay.
gee im talking like there's no school tomorrow. haha.
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they say ignorance is bliss.
sometimes, on certain situations, it's very true.
its the sad truth that i have to face.
cmon muZz, look that the bright side of things. at least it's better than no friendship, right? at least it's better than a stagnant friendship.
ok, maybe things are not so down after all.
you once wrote this for me. well... not directly for me, but it was upon my request that you changed your nickname(on MSN) to this__
``lost today
im not okay
heartbreak
a fake smile
and so long goodbye``
and now im writing this to you from me__
**smile for today
you're gonna be okay
if you ever need me
i'll be there for you
'til you pull this through**
there is a low probability that you're reading this.
but should you ever read it...
i just hope you wont stop contacting me...
oh well. i'll leave it for now.
1/14/2007 07:03:00 AM
spongebob! haha:)
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heiwai the haywire. hahax. he handled the food for the campers in og12. thanks loadz yea=)
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bestie anisa(=
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og12.
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last two pics that we took before dismissing them. og12 rawks!=D 
1/12/2007 06:59:00 PM
during gp lesson..
huangshen entered class late.
teacher to huangshen: ive never seen u around before.. is this the first time im seeing you..?
hunagshen: (silent)
teacher: lets try that again. is this the first time im seeing you?
huangshen: (pauses) huh..?
(the whole class laughed)
teacher: lets try that again. is this the first time im seeing you?
huangshen: err.. yes.
teacher: (another qsn)
huangshen: HUH..?
(WHOLE CLASS LAUGHED AGAIN)
LOL. darn funny la.
after school i had og dinner at imm banquet.for ogls only me zalena and ilyas attended. nadya and fadillah tagged along. it was great basically. then after lunch everyone went off except me keith cassandra yonghao timothy lihwei, zalena and nadya- both went off around 15 min after the rest left. then we hung out at the children's playground. i thought we made alot of noise- either that or someone complained, coz the security guard came after we finished two rounds of 'obstacle race', telling us not to climbaround those.. things (lol) coz we may be too heavy. haha. so we decided to sit down. and had story telling sessions. we only headed off to home at around 7. haha.
thanks for the fun peeps(:
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WEDNESDAY 100107--
cca day. didnt stay around for long though. after school ended, went to Lot1 with fizahK to get some.... stuffs. heh. then we went to McD to cancel out on one of the cravings- McD's HOT FUDGE SUNDAE! lolx. and of course, another heart to heart talk plus a session of bitching. haha.
then went back to school to watch some rugby. haha.
then followed nawa shila and mira for some stationery-shopping.
then went home.
that was one hell of a long talk we had. it made me feel like i've known you for years. like we've been close friends since forever.
i felt i knew so much today.
but hey, why the heck what that lie for sey?
i still believe its impossible between us. so allow me to bury these feelings in my heart til the time comes for me to say it. perhaps if its meant to be, then i'll keep this in me forever.
at least for now, im grateful we still talk to each other. who cares if its only msn? thank yopu, God for giving me the opportunity to have a heart-to-heart talk with him. and thank you, my friend, for willing to share stuffs with me, although u lied to me initially. im just glad u let it out.
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THURSDAY (TODAY)--
it was seriously some shitty day for me. bad hair day, only one break, bladibla....
after that break i had physics tutorial. then geog tutorial. both 1.5 hr. then for geog i had to take new notes, being the geog rep. so i went to the other class, the lit class (coz the treasurer takes lit) to borrow class fund. but treasurer didnt bring the class money. so the class rep took initiative and took out her own money. then the lit teacher went- "im having a lesson now. can u ask from other people in ur class who are free?" and in my heart i cursed "wtf? everyone in my class having lesson nw la!"
putting that incident aside, i went to the printing room, and asked for geog notes. it turned out that the printing room aunty thought my class have only 2 people taking geog, when there are TEN- 2 h2 students and 8 h1 students. and i took 5-10 min settling the technical error before she told me that the printing of the notes will take 20 minutes. arghh.
and that moment i was on the verge of crying.
so i waited for 20minutes before taking the notes and went back to class.
had pc after geog- in total, we ran 4 rounds around the tracks and did pull ups.
aiming to relieve my stress, i went to the gym and workout on the treadmill for 30minutes after pc.
and walked home for another 30minutes.
so yes, im quite drained out now.
1/11/2007 08:05:00 PM
my parrot named keith. hahah><
1/08/2007 09:22:00 PM
subject registration. icebreaker games. mass dance. lunch. og time. afternoon games. wash up. dinner. song-singing session. night games. supper. lights out.
some of the campers went rara-ing already. esp that vivian and her GESSians. hahah.
it was great to see the campers moved to another level from what they gave during admin day one=)
every day there are choices we must make
every day there are challenges we must face
but come what may
dont turn away
just seize the day
stand up tall and say
i wanna be the best that i can be
and live my live with strength and dignity
i may stumble and fall
but if i give it my all
then i stand up tall and say
that i want to be the best that i can be
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Camp day 2-morning pt. breakfast. telematch. mass dance. lunch. kinetic warfare. washup. dinner. jj nite. supper.
it was truly great to see how my og moved to another higher level. they showed initiative. they cheered along. for those who didnt, they clapped along. technical glitches in kinetic warfare didnt really bring me down much, coz by jjnite, i was back in action although the pain in my leg didnt go away. i smiled along as i saw their smiles, sang along as i saw them enjoying themselves. it was a moment worth sacrificing for.
tonight we remember
the times that we spent here
the joys and the laughter that we shared
tonight we cherish
the moments spent together
because it's the only time we have
look at us and see our smiles
this is where we all belong
i remember the times we spent together
until my last december
tonight
after sending the girls to their sleeping room, i went crashing the guys' room. haha. had a small story telling session with them before ogl's debrief.
slept at 3+ am in the canteen while making the campers' gift. hahaa.
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Camp day 3--breakfast. e-web.
e-web was supposed to be emotional. but my og was too unique that laughter was in the air most of the time.
more song singing.
Took my hand
Touched my heart
Held me close
You were always there
By my side
Night and day
Through it all
Baby come what may
Swept away on a wave of emotion
Overcaught in the eye of the storm
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine
Believe that you're mine
This love is unbreakable
It's unmistakeable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
A feeling my heart just can't deny
Each time I look in your eyes
Oh baby, I know why
This love is unbreakable
Shared the laughter
Shared the tears
We both know
We'll go on from here
Cause together we are strong
In my arms
That's where you belong
I've been touched by the hands of an angel
I've been blessed by the power of love
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine
This love is unbreakable
It's unmistakeable
Each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
Afeeling my heart just can't deny
Each time you whisper my name
Oh baby, I know why
This love is unbreakable
Through fire and flame
When all this over
Our love still remains
This love is unbreakable
It's unmistakeable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
A feeling my heart just can't deny
Each time you whisper my name
Oh baby, I know why
Cause each time I look in your eyes
Oh baby, I know why
This love is unbreakable
i teared. alot.
had a short period of og time before dismissing them.
and that was it. the end of camp.
frankly, i dunno how long the og can last. but i hope i will still be in contact with them. most of them at least.the bonds created will always be there, even if they lose contact with one another.
thank you guys, especially GESSians for the memories=) thanks to the rest of the og peeps for smiling, coz it was their smiles, really, that would make us OGLs happy at the end of the day. of course, the OGLs- ilyas, zalena, anisa, heiwai and waiyee- were a helpful bunch of peeps too. coz without them and their support, i cant bear to think how the og will turn out to be.
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had a 7-10pm nap yesterday. and slept again from 12am to 12pm today. guessed it was for two weeks of exhaustion. haha. still feeling tired now, but smiling.
i'll put up the pics as soon as i get them=)
school tmr. yippee.
`og12/ f3 for life.
thats why twelve is special number(:
1/07/2007 04:45:00 PM
ps: SHAI HUSNI AND CICAK!! I CANT WAIT TO HANG OUT WITH U GUYS AGAAAAAAAAAIINNNN!!
1/03/2007 11:02:00 PM
